Morning lovelies.....I’m pretty sure there isn’t enough coffee in the world for the shit show I am today, but we’re gonna make it right?

Have you ever had so much crap to do and you end up getting nothing done? Yeah, welcome to my world. My problem is I can’t just pick one thing and complete it, oh no, I have to start 17 different things and then nothing gets finished. Ugh. Overwhelmed at it’s best.

So just for today, let’s try and accomplish one thing. Anything. From start to finish. And then let’s be proud of ourselves for doing it, instead of looking at everything else on our plate.

Ready, set, go!

So yeah, it’s been a month since my last entry.......but here I am, ready to get back to it. I was in a little bit of a funk these past few weeks and I didn’t want that to reflect in my writing, but then a good friend of mine reminded me that, that’s what being real and open is all about.......sometimes having to share shit we really don’t want to. Letting people see us at our not-so-great.

I’m nearing the last leg of my divorce proceedings and honestly, I was ready to throw in the towel. I’m not built for spite and nastiness......it hurts my heart. I also am the type of that person who doesn’t like loose ends and being tethered to things that no longer add to my life, it makes me crazy and I feel like I’m in limbo. Miraculously, things took a turn for the better and in probably less than a month, I will finally be free. Lesson learned......when you feel like you just can’t give anything else, like you don’t have one more ounce of fight in you.......hang in there, you’ll be surprised.

Life is so unexpected. Every day, every hour, every moment......we honestly have no control over what might happen. Now, I’m not saying to just lie there like a sack of potatoes and take whatever it throws at ya, you still have to be an active participant in it.......otherwise, what’s the point? Just expect the unexpected. Roll with it. Sometimes tell it to fuck off and do what you want anyway, but always pay attention to the message it’s trying to convey to us.

Good morning my lovelies! I feel like the weekend flew by and here we are, trying to get through Monday. I guess we’ve got to start somewhere right? Lol. Not that I don’t find myself “starting” something about 75 times a day.....I’m trying, I really am. And that’s all we can do, put our best foot forward, give it all we got and hope for the best. I think everyone is so concerned with the end result, that we forget to enjoy the journey. We neglect to congratulate ourselves for the progress (no matter how small it may seem) we make. Forward is forward.......no matter how slow or how small the steps dammit!

So, even if it’s just for today, be proud of where you are, how far you’ve come and where you’re going, tell yourself “good job bitch, you bad”. And then do it again tomorrow and the day after that.

I hope as you lay your head down tonight, sleep comes easy and you feel good about the day you’re bidding farewell to. I hope you paid attention to the little things and smiled a bunch of times. If you would rather just forget this day ever happened and feel like it only deserves the middle finger, that’s okay, because guess what......tomorrow is a another chance to get it right.

Sometimes we just need to know, tbat someone is there.....

Hi. Hello. Welcome. I always put off today what I can do tomorrow, but I’m
trying to turn over a new tree......and here we are.  I guess the best place to start, is to tell you a little bit about me.....FYI, I hate talking about myself, the mundane things anyway. So you’ll find that I like to dress it up with a lot of off colored humor and swear words.

I’m a 46 year old single mama to three heathens, 18, 14 going on 35 and 11. Don’t get me wrong, my kids are amazing and they are my world, but dammit if I don’t understand why some mothers eat their young. Looking back now, it’s funny because I always said I wasn’t going to have kids, but life had other plans and I found myself knocked up at the age of 28..... .28 right? Like who doesn’t know better by that age? Lol. I can now say, mom has and will be the most important role I’ll ever play.

So you’re probably asking, but what landed you here in blog land? Well, almost two years ago, after being married for almost 15 years, I found myself unwillingly in the middle of a divorce. I will spare you the sordid details (and trust me, they were a plenty) and just say, writing is what I did to help me get past all the ugly. In all actuality, writing was something that was always very cathartic for me. Whether it was poetry, journaling, short stories, I was always able to express myself better in writing. Which in turn, helped me process whatever I happened to be going though. I have also always been a helper. A healer. A listener. I am most at peace with myself when I am helping others and connecting with people. So I thought, well, why not combine the two? Add in some comic relief, a very colorful vocabulary and real life stuff and just maybe, I could connect with others through it.

I’m not promising you all carb-free bread and chubby unicorns. I like real. I like raw. And sometimes those things aren’t very pretty, but if I can put a smile on your face or if you find yourself relating to any of my crazy life, then welcome, grab a seat and stay a while.